by I don’t know,
What to do.
The air feels strong,
These feelings are new.
I don’t want to disappoint.
Myself or others.
Or feel the lifelong feeling of regret.
Where is the line?
It must be drawn.
I will not decide,
Until maybe dawn.
Until I need to,
And hopefully at that time,
I can do what is right.
I already feel bad enough for what I have said…
But all these new feelings fill my head.
I never would’ve thought I’d feel this way.
But I am at a loss of words,
And I don’t think this is okay.
I am sure it won’t matter in the end,
If I stay or decide to tend,
To my other needs.
Kinda numb,
Thinking that it was all dumb.
Would my past self be proud?
Or would she be really mad at me,
And scream really loud?
Or maybe future me is thinking,
Why on Earth did I do that?
I am just doing the best I can,
Having as much fun as possible.
I just want to make it through high school.
And make the whole thing more tolerable.