by My mind wanders now.
My brain hesitates.
I don’t want to allow,
You to hurt my fate.
You have done so much to me.
And those things are not good.
I wonder why you did them.
I didn’t think you should,
Have made me feel so small.
As now I feel nothing,
Nothing at all.
You have changed everything.
After this treatment I received.
And by the way you talk to others.
I can not believe I believed,
Your horrible and mean lies.
I try to make you happy,
But I bounced off like a nothing.
The cut is deep and talks time to grow over.
Maybe the pink will stay,
With a white scar formed under.
You have gone straight through my heart,
With a poisoned sharp arrow.
You say these things and I wonder which ones of them you mean.
My mind fogs when I think of you.
I guess I will just have to pretend.
That you actually talk to me.
I hope they think it’s true.
Have a good life out there.
I guarantee you’ll end up alone.
With no friends, and just yourself in a big fancy home.
We will lose contact,
That is almost sure.
And when I think back to these years,
I will wonder how I ever let you in.